Feeling Emotional - Cape Town

Sunday Morning and feeling emotional, my heart feels light but eyes are filled with sadness. I thought I made peace that I cannot be with you due to circumstances but also that you are straight even although I always hoped u would be bi.

It's always been u. I always chose you. I can move on it's just hard finding someone who understands what dl is. Living this life is not easy. But how do I move on with my life but I always wonder would I meet a straight DL guy, someone compatible with me. No complications, no expectations, just respect, someone capable of meeting regularly.

I am not coming in to disrupt ur life. But I am here for that hour or two I can spend with someone and just be a version of us in that moment.

I used to think I was the only one from a conservative background struggling like this but I recently came to understand that there are so many guys who struggle too. Just a message for you guys. You are not alone so never feel that you are. Due to circumstances you might feel that way but there are a number of gents who feel the same we just won't tell each other. I am praying for you

I know this is not a blog. But I needed to post this somewhere.

Anonymous straight DL